screwed.

everything i have is falling apart. my tennis shoes, my walking shoes, my cellular phone, my pants, my blog, my emotions, my exams, my life. i can't seem to get things work out the way i want it to be.

"it's okay if everyone around you leave you behind. the important thing is you don't leave yourself behind" i'm trying very hard to carry on. but i can feel the tension building. everything i do isn't right. everything i try to do is a failure. i am falling even deeper into the pit i've been digging all these while. preparing my own grave, my own hell hole.

so stop. but it's easier said than done. stop digging, stop falling. pick yourself up, stand on your own feet again. do not depend on others. do not wish nor hope for a helping hand. for it may not be enough of a help rather than words of sympathy.

i'm into one of those days where everything seems wrong even though i've been trying my best to keep my emotions on check. i'm tired. tired of the weekendless week, tired of the trying to lead. tired of even trying. there'll be no break this semester, and i wonder what will happen of me towards the end of this semester.

the only place i find comfort is within myself. but it is getting harder and harder to reach in within. lifeless, souleless, drifting with time, not knowing where i'll end up.